this is me as a daffodil


daffodil zen


opening doors

I am thinking these days that there is so much to learn and so little time.  I open one door and look at all the unknowns in front of me to only see three more doors I need to open to find the answers to the locked doors in those rooms.  I love to learn, the older I get the more questions I have. I no longer believe what I was taught and raised to believe, I have to know if it is true. I have to find out for myself.  So many times things didn’t make sense but I was too afraid to deviate from the proverbial fire escape. I no longer am. I put my toes in the water when i began this leg of my journey, and now I feel fully immersed, not drowning in a sea of confusion but basking in the warm light of God’s love. I know now that it is okay to question. God loves us all so very much,. He is not mad at me, he made me and he knows me. I don’t have to pretend or put on a facade. He loves me just as I am. It is okay to reach beyond what you believe you know. God is a all grown up, he can handle it.  Someone this week said they are praying for my salvation.  I think if they would look around and open up one of those doors,they might not worry about it.  How can I not be saved. God and me are in love with each other.